If I disappear

Will you look for me if I disappear?
Somewhere, far away from here
The day will come when I'll blow
And that day is so much near.

Why do I feel this way?
Why can't I open my mouth to say
That nothing is okay
And I have no hope that will stay?
But I wish that some day
I go back to be the same
Because lately, living hurts
And you leave me with my pervert
And psycho thoughts.

I feel so sad
When you aren't in my bed
I'm feeling so alone
When I think you don't belong 
To me, to me, to me
It's so bad
Don't be with you
I need you
I miss you
And I hope find something to do
For me, for me, for me.

Will you miss me if I disappear?
If it happens you come here?
The day will come when I'll give up
And that day is so much near.

I talk about my problems, is it so bad?
If my feelings are a problem, i'm sorry for that
Isn't to make you feel worse
I'm no more that person.

Why don't you believe in me?
Why can't you see?
I'm so lost babe
And I can't find no hope for me
Where are you now when I need you here?
Talk to me, say that you believe in me
It hurts so much when you say that i'm lying, indirectly
I'm not lying to you
I'm counting on you.

Will you die if I disappear?
Cry at night until I come back?
The day will come when I'll try again
And I hope that day come earlier.